Feelin' like crap!!

My friend called today and she had a 7 year old daughter who is in gymnastics. She asked if Dylan could go to a lock in fundraiser that they were having from 9pm tonight untill 8am tomorrow morning. I thought about it and thought about it and said yeah I guess. Around 6 I started to feel so uneasy about the whole thing because he has never really been away from me for something like that and I really don't know any of the people who are going to be watching the kids. My friend said they are great and I trust her but I still was not comfortable with the whole situation and was getting really nauseous. So I called her up and told her I had changed my mind and just could not let Dylan go. When I told Dylan that I changed my mind he bawled his little eyes out and made me feel like a piece of crap. I never get weird feelings like that and I feel like I have made the best decision. He is only 6 years old. I honestly think he is still to young.....or is it just me not wanting him to grow up?!?!? Who knows. Anyways I think my friend may be mad at me which I totally understand why seeing how I told her yes one minute and changed it another but even when I had said yes in the beginning I let her know that I was not quite so sure about the whole thing. I really feel bad because she had already told Destiny(her DD) that Dylan would be going so I really hope she is not upset. My friend said that a few of her friends would be there so hopefully she will forget all about Dylan supposed to be there.

Anyways.....to cheer Dylan up I went and rented him a game and got him a milkshake and we all played the game with him and had a really good time. I think he had totally forgot that he is missing out on that little lock in.